The beginning ...again!

OK...I had a meltdown about two weeks ago. A real one, the kind where friends decided I needed to be put away for a few days to get my meds adjusted and stop thinking about an early entry into the Hereafter. The friend who went with me said, "A death does need to occur; it just doesn't need to be your physical one." I decided she had a point.

Although I am only at the beginning of this dying/birthing process at the tender age of 38, I already have learned one thing: this birth is gonna suck a lot more than the first one simply because I will actually have conscious memory of it.